Not sure about you but I have far too many vices, and now I have another stalker to add into the mix..
The holy trinity of smoking, gambling and drinking have kept me going for the last few years, never a dull moment around here!
My gambling has got a bit out of hand in recent months - another severe losing streak. Eating soup or beans on toast every night can't be a healthy diet? and when you wash that down with copious amounts of cheap red wine and Lambert & Butlers (silver) it is a recipe for an early grave. I might even give up soon to start living some kind of normal life.
Bizarrely amongst the carnage, I have got a taste for working harder and a focus on my career -I have never put this much effort into a job all my lifetime - I need to give my daughter everything she deserves, so need to earn,earn, earn!
I think I can officially now say I am starting to get over the break up from my wife. 4 years on and the tears are beginning to dry up.
The fact that the love of my love has shacked up with a 25yr old (she is 40btw) and my 5yr old daughter talks about him non stop has been a tough challenge, but I am getting there.
Life is odd, as soon as I start sorting myself out and get used to living on my own, women are keen to get their claws in.
Honesty, apparently is not the best policy. The more honest I have been, the more successful I become. I have spent the past 18 months telling one particular female friend that I have no interest whatsoever in a relationship, I am happy on my own, my sad little existence is enough for me, the only focus is keeping my job and looking after my daughter when I see her.
The more I tell the truth the more desireable I seem to be! If only I could be so cool with women I actually fancy Now I am dodging texts and phone calls because I don't want to upset a nice person but 100% don't want to fall into a relationship with her. Truth hurts, springs to mind
Anyway, its half term, and from Thursday till Sunday I will be with my gorgeous daughter. She makes life worth living, her energy innocence and her sense of humour (well developed for a 5yr old!) mean we will have a great time.
Swimming, Museums, Park, Cinema, DVDs, Ker Plunk, Playmobil, Grandparents, we have a full schedule for the weekend and I can't wait!
Wednesday, 18 February 2009
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
Update
Well my marathon training is being severely interrupted by requests for going out drinking.
I am averaging 1 run a week at the moment which is hardly enough to complete a 5km fun run let alone a full marathon.
Never mind, life is not too bad at the moment, all of my new years resolutions have failed spectacularly except taking my job more seriously. The problem is the more you take work seriously the more work you end up with...
Do I spend more time cultivating my outside interests or spend the next few years putting in a great effort for a corporate giant?
Anyway enough of work, the most important things in life, like my relationship with my gorgeous daughter, are going well.
I managed to brave my first trip to the pub with her on Sunday to watch West Ham v my beloved Fulham. We lasted 30 minutes with no bother, a comic managed to wile away 10 minutes and her roast beef Sunday lunch lasted another 20 minutes before she gave up on it.
The packet of top trumps that I brought with me lasted for the next 15 minutes (is it bad form to let 5 year olds win?)
By the 2nd half, hiding under the table, sitting on my knee and demanding crisps slightly ruined things, and as soon Fulham threw away the game we made our exit.
Oh well, almost 80 minutes of the match comfortably negotiated, and if we had been winning I could have styled out the last 10 mins as well.
There is a possibility of a girlfriend on the horizon as well, she wants to go out tomorrow, but i'm not convinced. Does everyone always think they can do better? or am I just an arrogant, misguided fool?
I am averaging 1 run a week at the moment which is hardly enough to complete a 5km fun run let alone a full marathon.
Never mind, life is not too bad at the moment, all of my new years resolutions have failed spectacularly except taking my job more seriously. The problem is the more you take work seriously the more work you end up with...
Do I spend more time cultivating my outside interests or spend the next few years putting in a great effort for a corporate giant?
Anyway enough of work, the most important things in life, like my relationship with my gorgeous daughter, are going well.
I managed to brave my first trip to the pub with her on Sunday to watch West Ham v my beloved Fulham. We lasted 30 minutes with no bother, a comic managed to wile away 10 minutes and her roast beef Sunday lunch lasted another 20 minutes before she gave up on it.
The packet of top trumps that I brought with me lasted for the next 15 minutes (is it bad form to let 5 year olds win?)
By the 2nd half, hiding under the table, sitting on my knee and demanding crisps slightly ruined things, and as soon Fulham threw away the game we made our exit.
Oh well, almost 80 minutes of the match comfortably negotiated, and if we had been winning I could have styled out the last 10 mins as well.
There is a possibility of a girlfriend on the horizon as well, she wants to go out tomorrow, but i'm not convinced. Does everyone always think they can do better? or am I just an arrogant, misguided fool?
Thursday, 1 January 2009
Happy New Year
I have managed not to speak to anyone so far this year, unless you count a shopkeeper when I bought the last cigarettes of my lifetime.
Im hoping a life as a semi recluse will be more fulfilling than the last few years when I have had the opposite of the Midas Touch.
Only 8 smokes left before I try and kick the habit for the last time, will probably cane them all tonight, stay up late and sleep through the worst of the withdrawal symptons tomorrow.
I have a list of NY resolutions as long as my arm - give up the smoking, drinking, gambling and start to get fit for my tilt at the Edinburgh marathon in May.
Take work more seriously, live a frugal lifestyle (can I survive on less than £10 a day?), earn some money from my fledgling websites, keep my flat tidy but most of all enjoy the life of being a single man.
January 1st Summary
Money Spent: £4.99 (10 Cigs and a carton of fresh Orange)
Cigarettes: 10 so far (8 left before I give up)
Booze:Half a bottle of red wine, 2 bottles of Stella
Gambling:£0
Exercise: Hardly moved all day
Will update my successes in 2009
Im hoping a life as a semi recluse will be more fulfilling than the last few years when I have had the opposite of the Midas Touch.
Only 8 smokes left before I try and kick the habit for the last time, will probably cane them all tonight, stay up late and sleep through the worst of the withdrawal symptons tomorrow.
I have a list of NY resolutions as long as my arm - give up the smoking, drinking, gambling and start to get fit for my tilt at the Edinburgh marathon in May.
Take work more seriously, live a frugal lifestyle (can I survive on less than £10 a day?), earn some money from my fledgling websites, keep my flat tidy but most of all enjoy the life of being a single man.
January 1st Summary
Money Spent: £4.99 (10 Cigs and a carton of fresh Orange)
Cigarettes: 10 so far (8 left before I give up)
Booze:Half a bottle of red wine, 2 bottles of Stella
Gambling:£0
Exercise: Hardly moved all day
Will update my successes in 2009
Wednesday, 31 December 2008
Marathon
Marathon, comes up peanuts slice after slice..
May 31st, i will be running the Edinburgh marathon, I will be 38 at the time.
Drinking and smoking will be out of the window soon, i just hope my knees hold up to the stress
May 31st, i will be running the Edinburgh marathon, I will be 38 at the time.
Drinking and smoking will be out of the window soon, i just hope my knees hold up to the stress
Tuesday, 11 November 2008
The Daddy is back!
Long time no see..
No posts in over a year, mainly because not much has changed. Still single, still smoking and still drinking - although i've managed to knock the gambling on the head.
Still managing to see my beautiful daughter on a regular basis despite my ex-wife and her obese toy boy moving over 20miles away and trying bully boy tactics with solicitors.
How great is it being a single father? well you pay your money and take your choice
On the downside I miss my daughter every single day of my life, I have little insight into her day to day life - from what I gather she is shipped to various breakfast and after school clubs and then spends most of her time with various child minders (at least the latest one is well fit).
I don't even know where my daughter sleeps.
After reading far too many self help bookks, I decided that avoidance tactics are best - I can't even think about the loss of my daughter anymore as it is guaranteed to bring tears to my eyes.
Birthdays & Christmas i'm no longer required, and when she sings the praises of some strange bloke who has been on the scene for 5 minutes it is hard to bite my tongue and internalise the bile that is dying to spew out of me.
But looking at the positive, every time I see my daughter I am there for her, I am desperate to see her, desperate for that Father-Daughter bond we have to continue, desperate for her to understand that our fleeting encounters are not of my making.
Even at 5 she knows - she has me running after her, buckling her shoes, wiping her bum, prompting her to eat.
The defiance and verbals that I would find annoying day in day out now give great entertainment value.
She laughs in the face of my discipline, yet does as shes told and behaves like an angel 99% of the time - "Dad you don't have a naughty corner do you?"
Domestic chores like washing up and food shopping can be suspended as we play 'Guess Who', watch DVDs, go swimming, go bowling, do painting, visit museums (& McDonalds), visit her cousins and Grand Parents (& great Grandparents).
I really doubt I would have this relationship with my daughter if I was still married
Anyway enough of my red wine indulgence, I get to focus on my career, half heartedly chase loose women and spend top quality time with my gorgeous daughter.
Looking at the bright side of life, things could not be better!
p.s. I took Mia bowling last Wednesday - she heard a song blaring out of a TV and told me "This is my favourite song". To be honest I am already too old to keep up with the latest bands so had no idea what the song was. "Kings of Leon" she stated as if I had been on another planet.
Not sure that a 5 year old should have a favourite song with the title "Sex on Fire"?
Unfortunately I have very little to compare my daughter with, the mother generally keeps all the other 5 year old friends in the case of a break up.
It would be great to hear about the antics of your 5 year old kids so I can ease my worries about my daughters development
No posts in over a year, mainly because not much has changed. Still single, still smoking and still drinking - although i've managed to knock the gambling on the head.
Still managing to see my beautiful daughter on a regular basis despite my ex-wife and her obese toy boy moving over 20miles away and trying bully boy tactics with solicitors.
How great is it being a single father? well you pay your money and take your choice
On the downside I miss my daughter every single day of my life, I have little insight into her day to day life - from what I gather she is shipped to various breakfast and after school clubs and then spends most of her time with various child minders (at least the latest one is well fit).
I don't even know where my daughter sleeps.
After reading far too many self help bookks, I decided that avoidance tactics are best - I can't even think about the loss of my daughter anymore as it is guaranteed to bring tears to my eyes.
Birthdays & Christmas i'm no longer required, and when she sings the praises of some strange bloke who has been on the scene for 5 minutes it is hard to bite my tongue and internalise the bile that is dying to spew out of me.
But looking at the positive, every time I see my daughter I am there for her, I am desperate to see her, desperate for that Father-Daughter bond we have to continue, desperate for her to understand that our fleeting encounters are not of my making.
Even at 5 she knows - she has me running after her, buckling her shoes, wiping her bum, prompting her to eat.
The defiance and verbals that I would find annoying day in day out now give great entertainment value.
She laughs in the face of my discipline, yet does as shes told and behaves like an angel 99% of the time - "Dad you don't have a naughty corner do you?"
Domestic chores like washing up and food shopping can be suspended as we play 'Guess Who', watch DVDs, go swimming, go bowling, do painting, visit museums (& McDonalds), visit her cousins and Grand Parents (& great Grandparents).
I really doubt I would have this relationship with my daughter if I was still married
Anyway enough of my red wine indulgence, I get to focus on my career, half heartedly chase loose women and spend top quality time with my gorgeous daughter.
Looking at the bright side of life, things could not be better!
p.s. I took Mia bowling last Wednesday - she heard a song blaring out of a TV and told me "This is my favourite song". To be honest I am already too old to keep up with the latest bands so had no idea what the song was. "Kings of Leon" she stated as if I had been on another planet.
Not sure that a 5 year old should have a favourite song with the title "Sex on Fire"?
Unfortunately I have very little to compare my daughter with, the mother generally keeps all the other 5 year old friends in the case of a break up.
It would be great to hear about the antics of your 5 year old kids so I can ease my worries about my daughters development
Tuesday, 26 June 2007
Frugal Living for Single Dads
If like me you have far too much time on your hands and far too little money to enjoy it, cutting back on your food expenditure is a great way of leaving more money for the real pleasures in life - drinking, smoking and gambling.
I have made a great discovery in recent weeks when visiting my local Sainsbury's Local to pick up a bottle of wine.
At about 8.00pm every night they have a fire sale of all produce that they are going to have to throw away the next day.
Nearly everything is reduced to 40p -50p and they have a big selection of ready made meals, fruit and various other produce.
Tonight for the princely sum of 90p I have had Spaghetti Carbonara for starters followed by a ready made meal of chicken and black bean sauce with rice.
Obviousy I spent the money that I saved on dinner on a decent bottle of wine - my only sleection criteria is that it has a screw top as I managed to break the bottle opener I bought from the local £1 shop.
So I have my food budget under control, my next aim is to cut out any expenditure on cigarettes.
When I get back from holiday (in Bournemouth) I am joining an exclusive gym and (hopefully) the money I currently spend on cigarettes will cover my monthly fee.
I have made a great discovery in recent weeks when visiting my local Sainsbury's Local to pick up a bottle of wine.
At about 8.00pm every night they have a fire sale of all produce that they are going to have to throw away the next day.
Nearly everything is reduced to 40p -50p and they have a big selection of ready made meals, fruit and various other produce.
Tonight for the princely sum of 90p I have had Spaghetti Carbonara for starters followed by a ready made meal of chicken and black bean sauce with rice.
Obviousy I spent the money that I saved on dinner on a decent bottle of wine - my only sleection criteria is that it has a screw top as I managed to break the bottle opener I bought from the local £1 shop.
So I have my food budget under control, my next aim is to cut out any expenditure on cigarettes.
When I get back from holiday (in Bournemouth) I am joining an exclusive gym and (hopefully) the money I currently spend on cigarettes will cover my monthly fee.
Thursday, 14 June 2007
Thursday Update
I have been neglecting this blog big style in recent weeks, mainly because nothing much has been going on in my life. I have been focusing on my other websites, but will be trying to update here as much as possible.
Anyway, I have had a problem with my left ear for a couple of weeks now, I am either going deaf, have an ear infection or a huge wax ball in my ear.
As a trader my money was on the wax ball and I have tried everything known to man to unblock my ear.
My 3 year old daughter Mia recommended warm Olive Oil so I tried that, I have also been advised that washing up liquid might do the trick.
Unfortunately none of these remedies solved my problems and when the pain set in for the last few days i thought a rare trip to the doctor's was in order.
I wish I hadn't bothered!
Every time I visit the doctor (about once every 3 years) I am made to feel like a total idiot.
He had a look in my ear and then told me I had a wax blockage and should try olive oil to clear it - well my 3 year old daughter gave me the same advice a week ago so I was less tham impressed
I was there for all of 30 seconds before being dismissed, on the way out of the door the doctor called me back and asked me to get on the scales for a weigh in.
He then delighted in telling me I am overweight as well as having waxy ears..
Teachers and Doctors are well off my list, but I will try and lose the 11 additional pounds that I have been accused of carrying.
If I am overweight I begin to believe the obesity statistics that are often quoted in the UK.
The gym is beckoning though..
Anyway, I have had a problem with my left ear for a couple of weeks now, I am either going deaf, have an ear infection or a huge wax ball in my ear.
As a trader my money was on the wax ball and I have tried everything known to man to unblock my ear.
My 3 year old daughter Mia recommended warm Olive Oil so I tried that, I have also been advised that washing up liquid might do the trick.
Unfortunately none of these remedies solved my problems and when the pain set in for the last few days i thought a rare trip to the doctor's was in order.
I wish I hadn't bothered!
Every time I visit the doctor (about once every 3 years) I am made to feel like a total idiot.
He had a look in my ear and then told me I had a wax blockage and should try olive oil to clear it - well my 3 year old daughter gave me the same advice a week ago so I was less tham impressed
I was there for all of 30 seconds before being dismissed, on the way out of the door the doctor called me back and asked me to get on the scales for a weigh in.
He then delighted in telling me I am overweight as well as having waxy ears..
Teachers and Doctors are well off my list, but I will try and lose the 11 additional pounds that I have been accused of carrying.
If I am overweight I begin to believe the obesity statistics that are often quoted in the UK.
The gym is beckoning though..
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